own your shit


So you are really good at something. Not professional, do not exactly hold a Nobel Prize for it but you are so very passionate about it. You want to become better, you are constantly (or perhaps not constantly, but you would love to be more consistent) improving your skill, feeding your love for the subject. Why then would you ever compare your passion with someone else's? Why try being someone else and living someone else's life if your own just sits there waiting for you? Do you understand that the number of people truly, and I mean TRULY passionate about something is extremely small? Do you realise that 8 out of 10 of those you see are doing what they do because their friends are doing it. Their parents are doing it. It is trendy now, and thats why they are doing it. Do you know why?

Because owning your shit is hard.

Because it takes some real balls to truly know your strengths and weaknesses, to truly go after something that you and only you desire. To stop questioning the 'correctness' of your decisions, to stop comparing your chapter one to someone else's chapter six. To push to be a better person. No one is just 'born with it'. You have to get there, and it is a conscious process, a continious jorney ahead.

Наконец-то чистый белый лист бумаги. Пусть виртуальный, пусть буквы печатает система, пусть какая-нибудь перьевая ручка не выводит заглавную букву, и все же передо мной чистый, белый лист, ждущий своей истории. Вы, скорее всего, уже смотрите на огромное количество текста, отредактированного, может здесь даже есть фотографии, но для меня это только самое начало.

Писать всегда было моей терапией. Панацеей от всех болячек - видимых и не видимых. Я бы, разумеется, хотела бы рассказать больше, поделиться самым сокровенным - для полноты, завершенности моих историй, может тогда стало бы все понятнее и статьи сами собой сложились бы в один пазл. Но мы же не в идеальном мире живем, и у каждого найдется по ложке дегтя в мою, не самую сладкую, бочку с медом:) 

Распланировав следующие статьи, я хотела сегодня рассказать о своем интерншипе в Christie's, о работе в ЮК в целом, да и вообще поделиться последними событиями здешней жизни, чтобы это было как-то полезно и информативно. Но голова напрочь отказывается работать в четко распланированном режиме, душа требует немедленного рассуждения, душевных разговоров и вообще полета мысли, если хотите)) Так что начну я неформально, с пролога к когда-нибудь-написанному, супер информативному посту).

Как часто вы слышали фразу "Просто отпусти ситуацию". Или вот еще одна: "Представь, что ты шланг, по которому течет вода". Грубо говоря, просто плыви по течению и принимай сложившиеся ситуации как что-то неизбежное, не сопротивляйся, и не думай обо всем слишком много. Как (???!!!) эта замечательная философия жизни показалась мне приемлемой я вообще трудно себе представляю. Что значит принимай сложившиеся ситуации как что-то неизбежное? Ну ты же не шланг с водой, в конце-то концов. Очень легко оказаться заложником обстоятельств, рабом своих же привычек и необоснованных, мимолетных желаний, будучи мокрым, безвольным шлангом.

Makeup & Skincare

Makeup & Skincare

Hellooooo everyone! I certainly have not expected the demand on this article! :) 
Over at ASK i have received dozens of questions regarding my skincare routine, my diet in relation to skin, favourite products and theeeeee (most popular of them all) makeup! Girls will be girls! I feel like there are so many things to talk about I want to shoot a fancy youtube GRWM tutorial - shall I?:)

I'll try to keep it short and sweet and as useful for you as possible. I also wanted to point out that everyone is different and everyone reacts to products differently as well, here are simply my preferences and my experiences. I hope you enjoy!:)

The Power of Education

The phrase ‘Knowledge is power’ dates back to sometime between 599 - 661 CE, and once you taste this power on the tip of your tongue, there is no way back. Understanding this system, it hit me harder that I expected and resulted in opportunities I have never imagined to have and experiences I will remember forever. After all, Aristotle must have been right. It is the art of living well. 

      

  
     
    
       
        
           
                
           
        

        

       
    
     
  


     I missed this. I know you guys did too. I too find the majority of the stuff on the internet very, very boring. When trying to find an interesting read it always turns out to be either some news channel or the REGULAR thing. The 'stencil'. Шаблон, короче :) You know, I did not even think about having problems writing when I was 14. I know some of you remember when I was back in college and used to have my Tumblr blog, writing about my days and my thoughts living in another country, reflecting back on the country I was born in - Russia.  I started writing, because I loved it and not because I wanted something out of it.    Because at 7 you write short, very weird stories that your mum keeps in her drawer, at 11 - poems of some sort. Then digital reality hits you and naturally you continue doing what you like, how you like it, there. The beauty of starting doing anything creative in the early age, I believe, is in absence of any regulations. You do you. Now I don't mean to discourage anyone from being creative at any age, but what I am saying is that I really hate seeing any 'rules' that you are meant to follow, the 'recipes of a good read'. Moving from Brighton to London I thought to myself "okay so now the adult life begins, now it all has to be done correctly". You know, "RIGHT". That kind of "right" that almost got me into the depression, this sort of Right. Everything suddenly had to fit the standard, and I see no reasons why I even thought so a couple of years ago. I tried, I really did try following the  golden rules  of the correct writing: "make sure the headline is searchable"/ "make sure to write a particular amount of words" / "make sure to use numbers in headline" / "make sure to be boring as fuck" kind of rules. What bugs me the most is that this kind of advise is EVERYWHERE on the internet.  You cannot just follow the rules in writing, thats what I am trying to say. Same is with painting or music, or any other kind of art. You have to feel it. It has to be authentic, people smell through it.  I guess you live and you learn.   From me being 14 telling you guys here how my day started with a cup of coffee and crazy things happening after - not much had changed:) I move to places, I meet new people but at the end of the day I am still here and I really, really want to share the amazing things that happen to me with you. If you are interested, if you can even remember me having that very first Tumblr blog and you are still here with me on this journey, then I feel it is my duty to be authentic. To only tell things I am genuinely curious about, or working hard on, or dreams and aspirations, lessons in life. I admit, this all might not be as polished as if I had a fashion blog talking about macaroons.  But I want to raise questions . To be myself, to be interested in all sorts of things that do not exactly even relate to each other from the first look :) That is what makes this place so unique for me.  And If you are sharing it with me, then here is my warmest greeting and my sincerest thank you!   If there is anything on your mind that you would want me to write about - life here in London, or exhibition review, or an opinion on a situation of some kind, you can always message me on socials or if feeling a bit shy -  ask me anything   here . :)  Barbara x

I move to places, I meet new people but at the end of the day I am still here and I really, really want to share the amazing things that happen to me with you. If you are interested, if you can even remember me having that very first Tumblr blog and you are still here with me on this journey, then I feel it is my duty to be authentic. To only tell things I am genuinely curious about, or working hard on, or dreams and aspirations, lessons in life. I admit, this all might not be as polished as if I had a fashion blog talking about macaroons. But I want to raise questions. To be myself, to be interested in all sorts of things that do not exactly even relate to each other from the first look :) That is what makes this place so unique for me. And If you are sharing it with me, then here is my warmest greeting and my sincerest thank you!

London New Tech x Monzo

London New Tech x Monzo

Okaaay lovely people. Shady's back. It has been a hot minute since my last update and I apologize for that! In stats section of the website I see people updating this baby every single day and I am guilty of not telling you more exciting stories that happen to me on a daily (sometimes even too much). Last week I went to the London New Tech event and it was amazing. Honestly, London is a place of events, can I just put it out there. Yes, I have never been to New York or Shanghai and yada yada yada, but I swear to you, in London, not a DAY goes by without something super cool happening around the corner. So make sure (!!!) to get your ass up and go explore (Or better - join me in my adventures and we can hang out together next time :)

Sooo where was I. 
 

Postcards from Sicily

Postcards from Sicily

How many people here write their major coursework with their laptops in one hand, passport in another one, on the plane to Sicily to attend the Managing Migration conference? I swear to you - thirteen years of education and I always tell myself "okay, this time I will start writing it some time in advance".

What a big fat lie, Barbara